Come and See These Angel Rays: A New Hope

 "I am about to face my biggest and deepest fear...the highest barrier I had since the day I got hurt. It's time to hold ground in its presence and let it go. The fear in the art of letting go..."

We all know what happened in the past. The important thing is that "we learn from our mistakes." I know my best friend and I were former sweethearts with the thoughts of having an enduring relationship. Mistakes hath done and these caused so much pain in my part. Well, for the sake of saving our relationship as friends, we decided to be best friends and that he insisted it first. But now, I think, this is enough. Letting go would be better for me to be happy. It's not that I am not happy when I am with him instead I was incredibly and deeply in my happiest when we're together. It was fun being with him. I can't believe I put fun and him in a sentence. It's just that, the same pain is still there which consumes a lot of myself - my concentration and focus in life. I had become selfish in not allowing myself to be happy and open to many of my friends. Now that God has opened my eyes, a new and fresh start will begin. I have no regrets that all I know is I've done my part. I showed him the love I can give but it is neglected by him. I love him still and I'll always treasure those joyful moments with him, yet I have to let go for the sake of allowing opportunities to come on my doorstep. Stop and move away from the same pain being felt over and over again. And I know, He has a plan for me...a GREAT one. I'll break that wall that hinders everything on my path in order to live with peace and happiness together with those people who truly loves and cares for me.

And as for you my dear best friend, you know you're not ready for a true relationship, so do I. In order for you to grow up, you should prepare yourself first and ask God for whatever your decision is. Don't just rely on others' opinion. I know you can do it. We are matured enough to think what's right and wrong. We should move on. Have fun. Life is so wonderful. There are so many things to explore and many people to meet and greet. Let go of us which will be truly helpful for us to move on. Don't force yourself to focus on just one or two persons but rather to a greater number of people. Who knows? Maybe, your future wife is somewhere out there. It can't/can be me or her...but still a person prepared perfectly by God just for you is your lifetime partner.

And as for you my awaited friend, come here and I'll give you a BIG hug. You know what's funny about this is that I think he's the WALL why we can't be friends. Think of it. It's time for us to let him go and go on with our separate ways. In that way, we can really move on already without having the same pain again. People just come and go out of our lives. Nothing stays permanent in this world except for the endless love of God. Am I right?

"...be ceased and be conquered for it is bravery, courage and strength that will reign in my heart. On this day, God wants us to know that what you are most afraid of is where your greatest rewards are. I know I can let this go...I can let you go. It will surely be fulfilling if I've done everything accordingly in God's will."

Above all, thanks to our Almighty God and His Begotten Son Jesus Christ with the gifts of the Holy Spirit. Amen.

Minsan Sa Isang Araw

Minsan naisip ko sa isang araw, BAKIT GANON? Nand'yan na naman yung taong alam mong tunay na nagmamahal sa'yo pero binabalewala mo lang. Yung nand'yan na pero di ka pa makuntento at naghahanap ka pa...na yung tao namang yon na pilit mong hinahanapan ng pagmamahal, sasabihin lang sa'yo na di s'ya sigurado kung mahal ka n'ya o hindi.

Ansakit eh...
Pero kinakaya ko...

You Can Run But You Can't Hide

I was awakened by a very bad dream, a nightmare indeed - should I say. Still got my eyes drenched with tears and has evidences of heavy crying. I can't even open 'em wide. It was like I'm having the very eyes of my other Asian brothers in the Orient. It's as if I'm one of them. *Gah* It got me really bad, and here comes the anxiety as well,which I didn't expect. I hope this one will never resemble any situations in the reality.

It was a very unforgettable dream, well, a not-so-beautiful nightmare. Sorry, Beyoncé, I got no sweet dreams and beautiful nightmare.

Flowers to Ashes

Remember those flowers of yesterday?
They're blooming so true everyday.
But then, one hot sunny day of July,
I saw them all wither then die.

I catch up to save them even it takes whatever;
Hopefully carrying a pail of fresh water.
Sadly, no signs of bloom like before,
It made my whole heart filled up with sore.

Drastically, I ran towards wilderness;
To reach out for some kind of distress.
I want you to know that you left me the most,
The time when I needed you the uttermost.

Wishful thinking covers my mind now.
You just broke our one and only vow.
Tired of being alone from way back there,
Again, all by myself amidst the dead air.

I can see unusual light I thought I saw ago,
It was on my mind before, a signal that I should go;
Like a caution of treachery and failure.
I realized it was true and I was so sure.

Now I assured that it was really true,
A deep wound having no cure.
Unhappilly, what's burned is burned,
The fact that it cannot be returned.

All that was left, was flower ashes.
Everything in me, falls and crashes.
I cry for about an hour and thirty,
Only because you became so flirty.

Even it ended up so easy,
I love you. Isn't it stated clearly?
I'll always keep the white flowers.
The ashes of the past forever, showers.

I Miss You

Nov. 2, 2010 | BOREDOM STRIKES
Pretty much to say, "Sembreak ba yon? Akala ko long weekends lang."
I was just writing this short poem about how I miss you.
Crazy, isn't it? Impromptu poem.
"Nothing but just a waste of time.", you might just say.
Well, whatever it is...
Here it goes...

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I MISS YOU

4 months felt like 4 years.

All days were flooded by tears.

Longing that somehow you're with me,

Like those times we used to be.

It seems that you're so numb;

And I'm just nothing but dumb.

Looking for some other light,

Amidst the darkness of the night.

Still, you're the one occupying,

This space in my heart beating.

Fly and go across the seas,

But please don't forget... PLEASE?

I know in my heart,

A part of you still remains;

Remains forever constant part;

'Cause YOU, no one can compare.

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See?

Actually this one's included on a letter.

Silly, I was just planning to say hi and know how are you doin'.

Maybe, I'm still that emo kiddo we're talking about whose habits include writing poems.

Okay, I hope you will like this.
I made it so fast so it's really short.

I'll give it to you when we see each other again.

My Cheesy Line Revealed

Imagine that there's a line drawn between you and me.
Just go and find an eraser if you do love me.
From then on, we'll be together.

Anghel sa Lupa?

     How do you like this photograph? You made me smile when you just said to me that my eyes are just like an angel's eyes. Well, as so many people noticed that, you're not the first one to say that. *haha* You really made me happy. Was that a compliment or what? *blah!* Kewl. They say my eyes are my asset, except for that eyebrows! *haha* Whoa! Thank you, Lord for giving me such tantalizing eyes.