"I am about to face my biggest and deepest fear...the highest barrier I had since the day I got hurt. It's time to hold ground in its presence and let it go. The fear in the art of letting go..."
We all know what happened in the past. The important thing is that "we learn from our mistakes." I know my best friend and I were former sweethearts with the thoughts of having an enduring relationship. Mistakes hath done and these caused so much pain in my part. Well, for the sake of saving our relationship as friends, we decided to be best friends and that he insisted it first. But now, I think, this is enough. Letting go would be better for me to be happy. It's not that I am not happy when I am with him instead I was incredibly and deeply in my happiest when we're together. It was fun being with him. I can't believe I put fun and him in a sentence. It's just that, the same pain is still there which consumes a lot of myself - my concentration and focus in life. I had become selfish in not allowing myself to be happy and open to many of my friends. Now that God has opened my eyes, a new and fresh start will begin. I have no regrets that all I know is I've done my part. I showed him the love I can give but it is neglected by him. I love him still and I'll always treasure those joyful moments with him, yet I have to let go for the sake of allowing opportunities to come on my doorstep. Stop and move away from the same pain being felt over and over again. And I know, He has a plan for me...a GREAT one. I'll break that wall that hinders everything on my path in order to live with peace and happiness together with those people who truly loves and cares for me.
And as for you my dear best friend, you know you're not ready for a true relationship, so do I. In order for you to grow up, you should prepare yourself first and ask God for whatever your decision is. Don't just rely on others' opinion. I know you can do it. We are matured enough to think what's right and wrong. We should move on. Have fun. Life is so wonderful. There are so many things to explore and many people to meet and greet. Let go of us which will be truly helpful for us to move on. Don't force yourself to focus on just one or two persons but rather to a greater number of people. Who knows? Maybe, your future wife is somewhere out there. It can't/can be me or her...but still a person prepared perfectly by God just for you is your lifetime partner.
And as for you my awaited friend, come here and I'll give you a BIG hug. You know what's funny about this is that I think he's the WALL why we can't be friends. Think of it. It's time for us to let him go and go on with our separate ways. In that way, we can really move on already without having the same pain again. People just come and go out of our lives. Nothing stays permanent in this world except for the endless love of God. Am I right?
"...be ceased and be conquered for it is bravery, courage and strength that will reign in my heart. On this day, God wants us to know that what you are most afraid of is where your greatest rewards are. I know I can let this go...I can let you go. It will surely be fulfilling if I've done everything accordingly in God's will."
Above all, thanks to our Almighty God and His Begotten Son Jesus Christ with the gifts of the Holy Spirit. Amen.
